Saturday Post: I Miss You, Diesel

Losing a pet of 13 years, is a bond that is dearly missed-the void and the emptiness cannot be filled by any means, not even any other pet can fill the void because every pet holds their own value and have their own space. Similarly, my Diesel was someone whose place can never be taken by any other pet.

It is traumatizing, it is hurtful, a heart break forever, those who have lost pets would be able to understand the pain that I am dealing with and how difficult it is to coupe up with the emptiness and loneliness that I feel since the day he has left.

I know he is looking from above the sky, and I know he is all free and running around like the way he used to. My little Baby, whom I loved the most. Even today, I feel his presence and the way he used to look at me, seems as if he is looking at me the same way the way he used to.

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Say A Little Prayer, Would You?

With a very heavy heart, tears dripping down my eyes, with my hands shaking I write this article as I have gathered myself to talk about my baby Diesel’s death. I didn’t know that I would be writing about this because you know, there is a thought that runs in our head that our Pets won’t leave us, they can’t leave us, the fact that everyone has to leave one day, we still want to live in denial. The similar thought run through my mind as well. But this is life, and everyone has to leave one day.

My Diesel he was a super-dog, he was one little mischievous puppy who came to us at the age of 3 months precisely, with him we had 2 other little puppies, Labrador and German Shepherd. Diesel, Fluffy and German were friends who stayed together and fought together, while my, that time Senior dog, Blackie a beautiful breed of Border Collie had her own space and land to roam, rule and be the queen. We never had any such issues with the Dogs keeping as being in Pakistan, we have the privilege of having a huge house with house help around, so saying that these little puppies used to be tied together during the day and let loose during the night to do all the things they want, the most adoring and naughty one was Diesel, why? because he was the only and the first dog ever who always let himself unchain and we don’t know how? and the rest of the lot specially German Shepherd used to bark and bark and shout to let us know that he is loose! the funny part was as if German is saying in Human language (Come out, see, he is unleashed, he is unleashed, come and catch him), I am dead serious, everyone in the house used to be like what is happening why are the dogs shouting, now there is a difference between barking and shouting of the dogs! and whenever me or mom went to look out, we always found Diesel unleashed while the Gsd and Labrardor stayed chained and Diesel was trying to unleash them. Oh my goodness! that was a toil really. This exercise went on for days for us, until one day, Mom decided to chain him and chain him twice and then put a lock (don’t worry, the chains weren’t heavy on their necks and that were pretty loose so they could roam around easily as well), but the next morning to our sight of disbelief, Diesel outdone the lock as well and we still don’t know how did that happen, he didn’t hurt himself as well and those chains and lock remained at their specific place only, but Diesel was out of the chain and lock, which we still think of and laugh. All of the puppies grew, since we had always kept Female Dogs, having a Male puppy and to understand his ofcourse natural habit, that was a learning experience for me. The weather was so humid and too much heat, that whenever we thought of getting him neutered it always was something or other which popped up. So we didn’t get him neutered. With time, these little puppies developed Parvo virus, Diesel was the first one who had it, but that time I couldn’t make it out that what had happened to him, as he stopped eating but drank water I thought it must be because of weather or something, (also, Vets weren’t common that time, and this is 23 years back), after almost a week Diesel began eating food, and labrador and Gsd fell sick, we took them to the hospital, Labrador couldn’t take the virus and she passed away in a day only. Gsd was on drips and she got better and that was a sight of relief when the Vet gave her a leg piece and she grabbed it as if she was so hungry. It was an amazing sight. During that time, after 2 years, my Gsd got rabid because he probably killed a poisoned rat in the garden. We couldn’t save her and that was the time when we as a family were broken. But the thought of going strong was running in our head because we had our Senior Dog and Diesel to take care of. Diesel and Blackie weren’t friends so we kept their privacy and never let them together because we know that how much possessive these dogs are for their master. Then one day on 9th March 2012, at 3:am, our Blackie passed away after 13 years. This is a relief as a family that our dogs made it to their Senior Age and we were there for them as a family. Blackie was one of sweet baby and I shall tell you more about her in my separate article. All my dogs have been my power and my moral support no doubt. When I say my Diesel is my lifeline, it means that he was the one who understood my mood swings, my temper, my sorrows and my happiness, he knew it all. He was one of a kind who literally outstood all the other breeds, he kept his spirit high and even until the end of time he didn’t give up until his body stopped responding.

Indeed, Diesel has outstood all the beautiful breeds and fought hard and till the end of time, he shall be remembered forever and ever and the void shall always remain.

My Baby Diesel is no more and I still cannot believe the fact that he isn’t any more!

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Happy Birthday To Me!

Yes, it was my birthday and by the grace of Almighty I was able to spend it with my lifeline, my family. This is the day where I feel blessed that I was able to have my anti-depressant, my little baby boo Diesel with me, who is now a senior dog of the age 13. God Bless (Ma sha Allah).

I always tell Diesel, that we together by the grace of Allah, made it together, we were kids and grew together, experienced challenges of life, environment, mood changes, health up and down, everything, we’ve been together for 2 decades by the grace of Almighty Lord. It has not been easy, as it was a roller coaster ride because, while I had to travel to USA, I had to leave my diesel behind with my father and those two months of my travel seemed like years, I still remember the tantrum my Diesel threw at me, he missed me so much that when he saw me home, he refused to come close to me, he didn’t like me giving him food, and when I called out his name, he use show his back to me. These little gestures of anger, love and affection made me feel that this is all what Humans feel. These animals may not be able to speak anything, but their little gestures and acts tells whole lot of stories. One of the major changes for us and him was when we changed houses and switched to a new place. I remember how my diesel reacted, he didn’t like anything about the place, as if he was uncomfortable and this was also bothering us as a family because, before he had a whole huge land where he could run and bark as much as he wanted and do as much digging but here his space is limited. I remember that one fine evening I went up to him and sat next to him, he growled at me, to which I commanded him NO. He went quiet and then I noticed tears in his eyes, this was then I realized that he is missing his old place and is only calm because his family is with him.

It is very important to feel and understand that how these animals share their emotions and gestures by their acts, and it should never be ignored because we don’t know what they are trying to warn us from or tell us something that is bothering them. All these gestures should be taken into consideration without any second thoughts because, it is the sign that they want you to know about something that they can see or hear or feel.

Remember, their gut feeling is strong as that is how they are created by the Creator.

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Saturday Post: Meet My Baby Diesel

Hi, my name is Diesel and I am a Mastiff and South African Boerboel mix, my owner got me from a vendor at the street who was selling me for few bucks, I was lucky to have been rescued at that time because then I don’t know where would I have been then. I was named by every kid ( my owner was only 15 when she bought me) in the house because I had the habit of running and running and running faster than the other dogs my owner had. I use to run faster and eat everyone’s food from their bowl, I use to unlock myself from my place and then ran around to show off to my fellow dogs and in return the German Shepherd use to bark and bark so my family gets to know that I am unlocked and roaming and eating their food. The good thing was that my fellow friends never said anything to me, actually, they never had the guts to say anything to me because I was the only alpha. My owner had A labrador puppy who was just weeks old and she saved her life from a vendor who was selling her, she was so tiny that I use to stay away from her because she was so delicate. Then my owner had German shepherd puppy of good 8 weeks, she was very curious and wanted to wander, explore and search everything she could do around but the problem was that we all stayed together and never hurt anyone and we protected the little labrador puppy that my owner got.

Overtime, now I am the only one who is reining in the hearts of my family and now my owner has expanded her heart and rescued plenty of cats who stay outside the house but always try to get in when she is not seen. I have to keep an eye on my owner that when she is with them, because I get a bit jealous but I also take care of the little Nutty (I believe she must have told you about him) a little puppy whom she has gotten vaccinated thoroughly. So yeah, I am fine with him.

I am fine with all, it’s just that nobody should enter my territory.

Stay tuned for more if you want to know more about me.

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