My life after the death of my senior dog Diesel, has left a void which can never fill, no matter whatever happens. My life has affected and that too terribly, the thought of waking up in a room where the sight of my Diesel is missing, to the left side of my dining table, where he uses to sit and wait for me until I get up to give him something. To the time where in the evening, I use to take him out for his business always telling him to walk slow or else he will have pain, he was a such a good boy! he knew he wasn’t supposed to pull his leash as I have told him not to, being a Senior Dog he knew that he had me by his side who would be there to understand him and his mood swings and his health issues, he knew that. The moment he used to look at me, it felt as if he was saying something to me, deep down my soul knew that he was telling me that I am about to leave.
I knew that night would be difficult for him, me and my family. We all were so well-connected, or shall I say a pure bond of love, affection and care we shared. The way he used to care for each one of us, every day it was his habit to come down the stairs with me and wait for me until I walk out of the room to guide him down the stairs. Once he stepped downstairs, he used to go inside my father’s room to check on him, to sniff his chair and bathroom, and then he peeped outside the main door of the house and there he saw my father sitting on the chair reading newspaper, then Diesel walks towards my mother’s room but he finds it locked. Then he follows me while I make my breakfast and prepare his. The way he used to look at me, with his uplifted ears, erect body already to see what’s my next move and when do I take his meal to his bowl, those eyes, that look, that walk of his-It’s just difficult for me to coupe up with.
That feeling of losing a Pet of 13 years- is so so difficult that I have tears in my eyes while I write, and I don’t know how to even share how those 3-4days were. It was all of a sudden! 13 years flew, literally time flew with Diesel. The love me and Diesel shared, the bond we made and specially the time when we shifted from our previous house to this one, he had been so calm, so understanding, he knew that he wasn’t supposed to bark loudly as neighbors would complain, he understood each and every hand gesture. He knew everything! All I didn’t know was that he would leave me. The only thing that I am happy is that I got to celebrate my 39th Birthday with my lifeline Diesel- whom I terribly miss.
My Diesel he crossed the rainbow bridge on Sept.9th, 2022 at 4:30am. Leaving a void in my life forever.
If you have lost your pet, then you would be able to understand the pain and trauma that I am facing right now.
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